Sorry girls. No FOTDs today. But I do have a lot of pictures from the Senior Awards Ceremony, the Yearbook Banquet, and just chillin' with my friends, which will be posted soon. Goodness, I'm really sad that this year is coming to an end. I'm so not down for saying goodbye to all my friends, especially knowing that I'm not gonna see any of them anymore (although I'd like to). It's gonna be difficult, and I could already feel all the tears riding up inside me, just waiting to burst out when graduation day comes.
This year has been so hectic. I've lost so many friends, especially two of my very best friends, who have completely changed. It's taken a toll on me for a really really long time. I constantly cried my eyes out. The tears wouldn't go away. I felt like shit. But I've learned to move on. One thing, however, that I've gotten through this, is, unfortunately, that I don't believe in "best friends" anymore. And it does hurt, because I remember the feeling of having one (more particularly, two) and always being able to talk to them about anything and everything, no matter how ridiculous or how serious it was. Right now, I'm just glad that I have the friends that I do have, because they've allowed me to get through so much and taught me to be happy with what I do have. I'm not gonna spend my time dwelling on the broken friendships that would only bring me down.
I'll just move on and be content with the friends that have stuck by me through the year(s). It's not a promise anymore. You just learn from the people you meet. My perspective's all fucked. But, it's getting together.
Ahh, okay. I'm gonna stop.
Take care girls.
<3 kristin
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Awww sweets *hugs* I know what you mean :( I don't think it's just friends, it's people in general who make a 180 on you and you question that. I hate when people you think wouldn't do what you know they wouldn't do and do it anyways. Bleh. Like I always tell my honey, he's my real best friend, no one else. He knows me inside and out. We can't trust everyone cuz the world is full of deceiving shady ass people :'(
Get better :) Can't wait for those pics :o
Oh geez sweets, you're not retarded!!! I completely understood what you meant :) I feel the same way, but at the end of the day I always turn to my honey :)
You know what? Just last night I talked to my hubby about having really really good friends in highschool where you spend almost everyday talking about EVERYTHING. and suddenly, things just POOFS and what's harder is that...now that you've grown and when you guys saw each other again, it's like you're just her acquaintance, i just don't know how some people can do it! But i guess..not everyone really takes friendship into account.. *hugs* life goes on, let's enjoy the times with our REAL friends who stuck with us..through hard times :)
I'm sorry to hear this, but I remember going through this as well. I find that my closest family members are the ones that I trust and confide in the most. Family is family. THEN AGAIN, this is only my CLOSEST family members that I feel this way about. For instance, my mom and my auntie connie are the ones I feel this way about. You're not retarded. I mean, after being screwed over so many times, it's a natural reaction to learn from it, we do have a buily in conditioning defense mechanism. anyway, i hope you feel better.
Hi Kristin!
I'm so glad you were able to find me again :)
Sorry to hear that things aren't going so great with the pals. It's always hard to let go of people whom you've shared so many great times with only to grow apart. It's happened to me as well, but life does go on. I learned to be extra careful with whom I trusted and perhaps that was a good lesson learned, you know? But it's like they say, only true friends will be understanding no matter how much life changes :) Hang in there sweetie. This too will soon pass.
Hugs from Hawaii!
Sorry to hear about this. But unfortunately, that happens when we get older. We lose friends and we gain some. You're still young and once you're in college, you're going to meet so many people! Over time, you'll find out who your true friends are. But who knows, maybe after a couple years, your old friends who you've lost touch with will come back. At least that's what happened to me.
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